So once again,
here I go again.
I have no idea how long it has been since I started drinking again - too long by all accounts - but I know how long I haven't: 1 day.
I feel like shit again, I have lost contact with family and friends, neglected all my commitments and finances.
Today I have just tried to keep busy, eat good food, and stay in the company of others. As it is quarter-to-midnight it appears to have worked. Tomorrow means finding a meeting and admitting to what happened. God I hate doing this. Again.